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 This is my new journal to go with my new life. I have been unhappy for so long and I have decided that I am going to turn over a new leaf and change the way I feel. I am going to be happier!
August 2004 
Jennifer |
Friday, March 25, 2005Monday, January 03, 2005Sunday, October 17, 2004
Things are better now, not back to normal but better. I don't know Me and Steve seem to be a bit pff lately, I don't know if its because we see more of each other then we are use to or if its becaues I am stress and he is stress and we take it out on each other because noone else is around. Oh well I know we are meant to be together and that we can get thorugh it we just need to talk and communicate to each other and everything will be ok.
I went to the hosptial to visit my grandfather today and its is wo hard to see him lying there so helpless and not be able to know if he is ever going to get better. I had to fight back tears a couple of times. I just don't want to remember my grandfather this way, I want to remember the healthy grandfather, the one I use to spend summers with, the one who took my brother fishing. I love him so much and his illness had bee so hard and trying on my family. I just want everything to work out for the best. On a happier note I will be able to post more often now because I have internet in my room. Stacey | 7:24 PM Comments *** Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Steve and I had a fight and he hung up on me. He has never done that before and now I don't know what to think. I cried a lot and then I sat and stared at the computer screen for a while and then I decided that I really needed to get my work done.
I mean its was a stupid fight and I called him back after he hung up on me and he appoligized but I am still worried because he has never gotten angry at me before. I feel like an idiot. I mean I have been super emotional lately, damn period, but its still no excuse to get upset. I was angry because one minunite he said that he had to much work to do and was going to see me, and I was fine with that, but then the next minunite he said that it wasn't that much work so he might be able to see me. That is when I got mad becaues I just felt like I wasn't getting the whole truth. Argh, Sorry to bother people with this boring stuff in my life but I have nothing else to write about and I am really worried so I needed to get it out some where. Loves Stacey | 8:28 PM Comments *** Sunday, September 26, 2004
Things are going well. I am a bit disappointed today because I should be on my way to Gros Morne but I am not so I guess I have to let go of that an move on. I guess on good point is now I have some extra money that I would have spent on my trip that I can save for Christmas or maybe a trip up to see Jen and Scott.
I have been bothered be a few things lately. I feel like I don't see anyone anymore. I Talk to Sabrina every day for a little bit and I see Steve and I usually talk to Virginia a couple of times a week but I feel like everyone else had disappered. I was glad to see some people last night though. I am looking forward to my birthday. I can't wait to go out and have fun with the girls. I am really going to miss Jen though. Well I have avoided my work long enough. I need to do a journal entry and plan my lesson for Tuesday and one for tomorrow as well. I must be going now. Loves Stacey | 3:40 PM Comments *** Sunday, September 19, 2004
I am going to be haveing my first supervised lesson on Tuesday. I have taught a bunch of lessons since the first week of school but this will be my first on in front of my supervisor but so I am starting to get a bit nervous. I am going to be teaching a math lesson on graphing. Its just one that is from the book where I will teach the concept and then have them do a page in their book. I really want this to go well. I hope that my class listens to me and that everything is going to be alright. I hope that my little kid that is sometimes a problem is good and that all goes well.
My supervisor seems like a nice lady but she also seems like she is going to be really particular in what she wants. I hope that it all goes well. So that is it. I don't think anyone actually reads this that is why I put all this here instead of posting it in live journal and botherin everyone with my crazy stupide worries. Well that is all from me. Must be going. Loves Stacey | 4:01 PM Comments *** Sunday, September 12, 2004
I have been in the school for three days and I am already getting sick. Damn kids and being the germ infested things that they are. I love them to pieces though so I can't be mad at them. They did not try to make me sick. I need to start back at having my orange every day so then hopefully I will be less sick.
I have successfully planned my first lesson. I will write more tomorrow to tell you if I manage to teach it successfully or not. I am a bit worried. I really want to do well. I hope that everything works out. Well I should be going. How does everyone like the new stuff that I added. Loves. Stacey | 4:54 PM Comments *** |
